Surprise!!!

I can't even express how long I have been waiting to post this news. Almost 2 years!!! But that time doesn't really capture everything I have felt and feel at this moment. I'm pregnant, but even more than that, I'm pregnant with twins!!! I am a little over 11 weeks along and finally feel comfortable sharing my news with everyone.

In February, I finally decided that I was ready to see a specialist. I found Dr. Slater at the Idaho Center for Reproductive Medicine and I met with her that same month. She is wonderful. I took various tests and was put on 100 mg of Clomid (a fertility drug). Poor Tim had to do some tests of his own, but he was a good sport :) Unfortunately and fortunately, all of our tests came back either negative or inconclusive, so we still aren't really sure what happened with my previous losses.

I began taking Clomid in March, but got a bit confused and only ended up taking half of my dose (50 mg) at first I was really disappointed, but now I see that this was probably a tender mercy :) imagine how many I may have had if I'd taken the full 100 mg! We were very lucky with Clomid and I got pregnant right away. As soon as we knew I was pregnant I began taking baby aspirin and a progesterone supplement every day.

Those first few weeks were scary because I had miscarried my others before 8 weeks, so we just kept saying, "Let's just get to 8 weeks." Now it is, "Let's just get to 12 weeks," and so forth. I've been able to have 4 ultrasounds already and it has been such a reassuring blessing to watch them grow and look more and more human. I got pretty emotional the first time we got to see their little heartbeats.

At my first ultrasound, the nurse practitioner thought she saw another sac, but when she tried to find it again, she couldn't so she said, "Well, it's probably just the one, but we'll see at your next ultrasound." That's when I began to feel that there were two babies. Sure enough, a week later, there they both were. We're still trying to believe that we will have three children by the end of this year. Tim jokes that we just wanted to catch up to all of our friends who have been married the same length of years, but who already have or will have three (Wilsons and Richards--he means you) :)

I "graduated" from seeing my specialist and will start seeing a regular Ob-Gyn this Monday. They sent me home with a card that they had all signed and told me to come back with the babies when they are born and to bring pictures for their big cork board wall of babies. That will be such a good day :)

All of these experiences-- the losses, the waiting, the frustration, and now the nervous excitement have brought me closer to my Heavenly Father. I have learned things about myself that I'm not sure I would have learned otherwise. I've learned more about faith and prayer and I've learned to try and have a grateful heart for the blessings I do currently enjoy. Prepare and hope for the future, but live and love and enjoy the present. Easier said than done as I've been sick sick sick and just long for a time when I don't feel so crappy. Oh, well.

So there you have it: Twins. Isn't that just so great?